I’ve been thinking about you a lot lately. I wish that you didn’t feel like you don’t need me. Yes, it helps you to feel better but it leaves the rest of us feeling broken. I wonder if you have considered that?
Maybe you believe that my absence brings peace to your life. I can see how you could be fooled into believing it. You don’t need to address what isn’t staring you in your Face! It’s a lie and my prayer is that you acknowledge the lie! I know that you know that it’s an illusion of peace. You throw two people out of your life and it provides peace to you.
Some would argue that’s what you do to toxic people and I would agree. But we are not toxic people and you know it! Just mirrors to you and your emotional and mental condition forces you to see the reflection. You told me once that you have a problem and I didn’t know what to say.
I have moved on down the road in life and I feel like I know a bit more about people. We all struggle with the same issues and it’s our individual experiences and personalities that determine how we deal. While your problem might be self loathing, I have another problem that is bigger.
I love you and I will always. Family is everything and I wish you could see our need for wholeness. I wish you could forgive yourself and us. I pray the Almighty keeps open the road between us and we make our ways back to each other before one of us loses the opportunity. 🌹💪🏾💯💜
signed still heartbroken